I have suffered in my life for being painfully quiet and withdrawn , different to other people , Isolated , Afraid , Shy , Scared , afraid to bond , Petrified of my own shadow , Afraid to let go , No life experience , No sexual experience , Timid , Afraid to let go of my routine , Absolutely scared of my sexuality , Petrified of authority figures , Petrified of people who have rage and tempers , petrified of life in general . People around me have naturally picked up on my difference in all my places of employment and social events which have been very few and far between . I am an Introvert and a rare bird and I have been laughed at and mocked and left out of lots of things because of it including ambitions in the work place where I have faded out in the background . As you can Imagine it has hurt and cut deep within me because I consider myself a nice guy in fact too nice for my own good and I have been stamped over by extroverts and people with huge ego's when I have gone out of my way to keep people happy simply because I always felt that I must be liked by everybody but being humiliated in the process . Life can be very cruel to people like me who struggle with life in general but I like myself and I like who I am and who cares if I am a rare bird because I am me and I can clean my teeth and look in the mirror and say ' I like being me ' . I am also going to like being me for the next fourty years hopefully .